Teagan's Sandbox

Life

Surprise, You’re Pregnant

As I said in my previous post, I never knew if I even really wanted kids so when we found out I was pregnant with Teagan it was a complete and utter shock. Because I was on birth control and we were in the midst of planning our destination wedding in Aruba.

I was so sick for several days that I ended up going to the emergency room thinking I had some type of stomach virus because I had something similar in the past and clearly being pregnant wasn’t even a possibility on my radar.

After a few hours of tests, the doctor walked in and told us the news and said they were going to take us down for an ultrasound to confirm what we already knew from the blood tests. There it was, that sweet little heartbeat. I was terrified and all I kept thinking was “but Aruba…but our wedding.” Meanwhile, I look over at Cary and he is smiling ear to ear saying “that’s our little baby.” Looking back I feel so guilty for not feeling joy in those moments; for being as selfish as to think our Aruba wedding was more important than that precious life growing inside of me.

As we left the hospital, I was in shock. I didn’t even know how to feel. Cary was saying there was only one option. We both had good jobs, we were responsible people, we were in a committed relationship with plans to be together forever; that the only reason we would consider another option was for selfish reasons. Since I was terrified, I, of course said we should just let it sink in and consider all options. I personally could never consider any other option but that just goes to show you what fear can do to your mind.

After a few hours, it was clear that our family was going to add another member in June 2016 and we started feeling really excited. We went to the book store and bought parenting books. We bought my parents a grandparent’s book and decided to give it to them at dinner as our way of telling them.

I remember seeing a quote that night by Carl Sandberg that said “Nearly all the best things that came to me in life have been unexpected, unplanned by me.” Fast forwarding to now, I cannot imagine our lives without that nugget.

Honestly, I don’t really remember what the day to day was like prior to her. She makes every minute better while in that same second making me question my sanity. Whether you believe in a higher power or not, I know this experience has taught me to trust the timing of my life. Nothing is by accident. God knows what is best for us, we just have to trust his timing.

what do you think?

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *

  • 🎉GIVEAWAY🎉
Cold mornings call for inside picnics with @replayrecycled! They have graciously offered one complete toddler feeding set in this color to one of my followers! That includes 1 divided plate, 1 flat plate, 1 bowl, 1 no spill sippy cup, 1 drinking cup, 1 utensil pair, 1 snack pod! 
To enter:
1. Like this post
2. Follow me @jenny4gaskell and @replayrecycled 
3. Tag some friends you think might love to win in separate comments (each tag is an extra entry) 
This giveaway closes at 9pm est on Friday, December 15th! Good luck!! 🎉💃🏼
  • In case anyone needed the reminder 🎅🏼🎄🎁
  • I've partnered with some of my favorite accounts to give one lucky follower $1000 to Target 🎯OR just cash (sent via paypal goods & services)!!
To participate:
1: FOLLOW ME
2. "LIKE" this picture
3. Go to  and repeat the steps
4. Follow the same steps on every account until you're back here!
5. LIKE the last 3 photos and comment here when done.
Details: The giveaway will run for 72 hours from 12/10 to 12/13 at 10PM EST and the winner will be announced within 48 hours after the giveaway has ended. Winners must have a PUBLIC account at the time of drawing so we can verify you are following everyone in the loop. The winner will have 48 hours to claim their prize. Winner needs to fill out tax documents to claim. International entries welcome- may be responsible for shipping fees and tax if chosen. Host: @instaloops1
Please note: This loop is in no way sponsored, administered or endorsed by Instagram. Inc or any of the companies in the photo. If you've won a giveaway with the prize amount over $500 you are not eligible to win Another in a six month period. By entering you are confirming that you are 18+ years of age, that you release Instagram of any/all responsibility and that you agree to Instagram's term of use. No purchase necessary. Disclaimer-void where prohibited by law, no purchase necessary.
  • We started the night bad moms Christmas style and woke up this morning realizing we are really just some old golden girls! 👵🏻👵🏻👵🏻 So thankful for Instagram bringing us such an amazing friend!
  • This is GOLD, Teagan. PURE GOLD! I knew we’d get a crying picture this year and I won’t lie... I was pretty excited about it. I promise she will laugh about this later! 🙌🏼
  • Happiness brought to you by this little redhead. Smile brought to you by @smilebrilliant 😁 Don’t forget to go enter the giveaway on my blog for a chance to win your own kit! 🙌🏼 #linkinbio
  • BE HAPPY!!🌸☀️💕 I made this mood boosting roller for a friend last week and I loved it so much I made one for myself too! The recipe is up on my blog today!
  • Every day when we go to play outside the first thing Teagan does is run down to our neighbors to pat this frog on the head. Even I look forward to this daily ritual now💕